Where is my absurd little coffee this morn Claiming to be something or other I rise slower, wiping Pixie Dust from my eyes Never forget the dreams they try to smother My gorgeous blonde lady sleeping peacefully Our love burnt brightly into a passionate fire I stretch my legs & smile at a job well done She’ll slumber for a while, for she’s kind of tired
I’m out here trying my best to contribute
But in the end, you drank me dry
Never thought this life would be a crapshoot
I said forever. It wasn’t meant to be a lie
Each day I feel your eyes searching for flaws
Things aren’t right, this is no way to live
Even with love, there’s a line we must draw
For now I’ve got nothing left to give
Hanging out a local’s joint Homegrown & authentically bonafide The rupture of a coming Summer Basking in the heights of a rising tide The heartbreak of loving a society girl Though it’s worse when you realize That lovely creature never lied
Running headlong into the woods
With your meaningless tropes
Escaping any notion of your gaze
Slipping confinement & your stubborn hope
Never wished to be dubbed “wild”
At least not in your repetitive sense
Feeling numb to your expectations
Not remaining to hear your bland defense
Each step leads me further on my trek
Compounding the rules I unwittingly defied
Down the trail & away from your excuses
I didn’t listen, but I’m sure it’s all justified
Still sleeping on the edge Your side is far too cold The house feels empty Without you here to hold Never washed your lipstick Off the wine glass at the table I can’t lose everything I have Missing you makes me unstable
My fetish is powerful women Standing proud in front of a crowd Holding court with authenticity Firmly entrenched without having to get loud
Mesmerized by the way she carries herself Controlling me with a compassionate glance She’s my incandescent muse My reason for believing in happenstance
She’s regal without being out of touch Properly expressing how it feels to be real But I know she’s never going to give in No matter our depravities, she will never kneel
Containing the ability to remain soft & lovely While always making me hard She can be inconvenient to worship Not a plot point, won’t let you simply discard
Who am I to say no? When she asks me to open up for the Queen I’m the victim of my own volition But I love it all, if you know what I mean
Word by structured word Searching for concrete textuality She dropped her handkerchief coyly Never again to forget her sexuality
Her head thrown back in a laugh What makes her heart quicken its beat I’m pacing – racking my distracted brain Inspired to write, I hasten to take a seat
But he never learned how to read a book Or even the right words to steadily consume Never expect anyone to be your savior For intelligence, you gotta make the room
It’s always been my nature to resist Not sputtering words as an endless trope Never trusting anything popular nor cool The outcasts & rejects are who give me hope
Even the poor can spirit an uprising Don’t speak to me of your pragmatic lever I’m not going to buy into your propaganda Never a card-carrying member, nor true believer
Disquieted moments in the afternoon These Springtime rays have a golden hour Reflecting youth into my weary eyes The reassuring notion of dreampower
Yet gone are the mornings we woke afresh Our mortal flesh reeling down on Earth Life; the thorn in the side of this existence Internal fire requires our souls a wider berth
The slings & arrows shall never fully hinder For love always eventually finds a way Darkness cannot extinguish the sun This truth discovered by the piercing light of day
Poseurs, pacifists & poets reek
Sitting high on a lifeguard shack
Nighttime cloaked down upon us
Words in darkness never taken back
Ocean waves break the silence tonight
Only our thoughts to be heard otherwise
Isolation not what you thought it’d be
Tearing out your incessant broken eyes
Midnight sounds to be held on tight
A swim where you can never return
A fatigue to be felt deep down
Love exposed to moonlight will forever burn
Wilting roses by the fireside
Coffee warming bones chilled from the boat
Drifting thoughts to stagnant memories
Thawing words from poems you never wrote
For whom the Bell Jar tolls Chasing demons down the dark hall Scratching an itch until it bleeds Beyond a fantasy that wasn’t there at all
Never letting the imposter take hold Growing larger in our own impression Sizing up unquestioned confidence Surviving in spite of a soul’s transgression
A study in inexact notions Differences upon the prospective scene Our unruly burdens confound us Nothing to save us when life turns mean
Yet we can never let apathy rule the day In these times, we must be all the more aware Knowing truth can be unpopular Yet compassion is the way to genuinely care
Watching them march you down the hall Empty auditoriums to drown out your words Writing out rants my mouth will never recite The world run not by the cool but angry nerds
Step away and log out of their data systems We’ll send out love & peace in serial form Never trusted anyone with such confidence We’ll burn their egos to keep us warm
Never to be released from these institutions Saving our own souls is the remedy for us to see Before they forever lock us behind the parlor doors Setting fire to their house is the only way to be free
Chiseled words are never all that permanent
For we can be reincarnated as a muse
Awakening creation scribbled in the margins
Foundational folly that we might instinctively use
Our dreams hold us hostage Chained to our high ideals Lost to our intemperate youth The past reaches out & steals Time lost to us; never again What’s forgotten can’t be regained Our lives are our creation Figments we’ll never fully explain
Looking past clear stars Each universe has a split seam Stretch your fingers wide Leave behind your American Dream Be easy & think yourself free Our minds hold us back in chains Silently slip through the hole Never following you with their pains