Not to keep returning the subject to myself
But there are certain truths I must understand
I’m no one special, a mere footnote
A history to be written, though not as planned
Dreams & hopes that never came to be
A rakish poet nor grizzled old typesetter
Through the years & false daily realities
It is inexplicable the mundane became better
So I find myself with a specific freedom
To be able to move without any sort of cosmic retort
For I have faith in love, fate & ultimate grace
Allowed to live without any innate need to stop short
She said I was, “trying to conjure the ghost of Bukowski” I told her there was better writers to admire I’m not in college anymore Drinking & degrading women won’t light my fire
I’m looking for inspiration to ignite my soul A need to be revolutionized from the daily grind Normalcy & the mundane will kill my spirit I’m pushing forward to nurture & excite this weary mind
Two lost souls, like beachcombers Looking for lost things; love & such Distant memories of happiness The feeling of being needed; a touch Nestled within a Siren’s lullaby We never could grasp our fate Shrugging off the daily struggles Our only choice is to circumnavigate
Our private thoughts remain unimpeded Keeping the ghost light on those theater steps Daily life can become a sullen drudgery Yet still remembering when my heart last leapt
Swapping Daisy Buchanan for Lady Brett Dreams & visions traded for a martini glass The swirls of ice resemble their hearts The disappearing notion of the dignified class So we raise a toast for decent luck These three olives constitute her daily menu Dancing off silently out onto the veranda Subtly becoming her own performance venue
I can’t swim that far No use for a sailor like me Floating with the jetsam Without the pomp or jubilee This grey cell rocking On each & every wave At the whim of nature I pray for Jesus to save A daily grind in hell No time for witty quips This a mere life raft For the Devil’s Flagship
Sitting out on the porch swing Skirt spread flat over rocking legs Exhausted from the daily routine Tired of sharing life with the dregs Closing weary eyes to dream again Imagining a reassuring, masculine form Knowing this could finally be different This could be comfort in the coming storm